I have a lot to be thankful for this year.
I’ve taken it upon myself to get better. I’ve worked extremely hard the past two years, and this year has been a testament to the effort I’ve given to be better.
I’m better mentally, getting better physically, and as a person, I’ve become so much better as well.
I’ve tackled mental illness and anxiety, making strides I never thought possible. Because of these efforts, I’ve been given opportunities that I’ve waited ten years for – only this time I’m ready, willing, and most importantly, able.
By focusing on myself, my relationships with others haven’t suffered, but actually gotten better.
I’m thankful for my friend Becca, who has been there at one in the morning telling me I was worth it when I wanted to end it all. Friends like that are rare and beautiful and I will never be able to put into words her worth to me. I just hope I can be half as decent as a friend as she is to me.
My gigantic family who has supported me and been excited and proud of me just keep pushing me toward excellence I know I can acheive, even though I was lost there for a while.
I’m thankful for Random Acts, Misha Collins, and Osric Chau for restoring my faith in humanity and making me want to get out there and just do nice things, crazy things, and throw social norms out the window – teaching me that being ‘me’ is a good thing and I shouldn’t apologize for it or try to be anyone else.
My new friends from tumblr are kind of fantastic and I don’t know what I’d do without them at this point – and we’ve never met in person. One day, though maybe. At a Con. ;)
And every Thanksgiving, I have to thank April Camarena, as well as Melissa and Jamie who were there for me when things could have gone very badly. The sit-and-wait to find out if I was going to live or die with the clot in my lung was a lot easier to handle when I had my 173rd ladies, wine, and April’s kitchen to stress-bake 500 cookies for our boys in Afghanistan. I will be forever grateful for your friendship. Can you believe it’s been SiX years? And I’m still here. And you’re still amazing.
New friends, old friends, those Army buddies still sticking around, and those who aren’t here for me to make a chocolate cake for this Thanksgiving and then have him punch me and be an ass; you’re thought of often and fondly, and missed every day. Especially that scumbaggio that had to go be a hero.
I hope your holiday is great, safe, and full of good food and love.
Remember the reasons for these holidays and break from negative traditions.
As someone who is living on borrowed time, I for one am going to appreciate those people and things that mean the most to me.